This Abyss

With each thing I post I feel weight being lifted off. This is probably the darkest thing I have written.

This world is darkness
There's no light that I can see.
My heart is blinded,
And all the love is out of reach.
All I have is this abyss of hate and misery.
And everything I was is gone where I can't see.

This abyss is looking back at me
And wondering how I've managed to stay just out of reach.
I've nearly fell, too many times for me to count.
Every happy thought just fills my heart with fear and doubt.

I spend my time thinking that's where I should be.
I give a smile, but inside my heart is blackening.
What can I do? Everything is weighing down on me.
Well here I am, just end it all so I can't dream.

I want it to get better but it just gets worse.
I'm insignificant, just take me from this universe.
Maybe in the blackness I finally will get some help.
The end of everything doesn't even seem like hell.