I'm Still Here

I feel like for the first time I've made an actual song.

I run through my thoughts
Like a marathon man
But no matter how hard I try
I can't get the upper hand
The negative thoughts are like cancer
Infecting every part of my brain
Just when I think I will win
I fall apart yet again

‘Cause I'm here
And I fear
That all that I love
Will just disappear
Yeah I'm scared
That I dared
To give you it all
To show that I cared
Now you're gone
I was wrong
The world ain't enough
To keep our love strong
I'm still here
And you're near
In no time at all
This will all disappear

I wish I could cry
To find some release
But the tears never come
And I live in my screams
No one ever hears them
I bury them deep
So that no one will carry
The burden I keep

‘Cause I'm here
And I fear
That all that I love
Will just disappear
Yeah I'm scared
That I dared
To give you it all
To show that I cared
Now you're gone
I was wrong
The world ain't enough
To keep our love strong
I'm still here
And you're near
In no time at all
This will all disappear

I put on this smile
And tell lots of jokes
I pretend that I'm funny
To hide all my holes.
Everyone's taken shots
But not one stays to heal
I'm metaphorically bleeding
But somehow I deal

‘Cause I'm here
And I fear
That all that I love
Will just disappear
Yeah I'm scared
That I dared
To give you it all
To show that I cared
Now you're gone
I was wrong
The world ain't enough
To keep our love strong
I'm still here
And you're near
In no time at all
This will all disappear

I walk on and on
No matter what comes my way
I want to give up
But I promised I'll stay
Love isn't perfect
But it's kept me around
And therefore I keep fighting
To stay out of the ground

‘Cause I'm here
And I fear
That all that I love
Will just disappear
Yeah I'm scared
That I dared
To give you it all
To show that I cared
Now you're gone
I was wrong
The world ain't enough
To keep our love strong
I'm still here
And you're near
In no time at all
This will all disappear