Mother

Dedicated to my -->Mother Dearest<-- A mini-mini- series to my 'Father' poem

Hello, Mother it's been a while,
I still remember your beautiful smile.

But beauty isn't everything,
Especially none found in the secret you're hiding.

You treated me different; I felt special,
Not out of purity, but guilt- to put in a nutshell.

You decided for me so I placed my trust,
Did not you think, having my Father, a must?

You cannot imagine the hurt that I feel,
Betrayed and mortified, I cannot conceal.

The damage you have caused my entire life,
Will never amount to my Father's strife.

What if he did want me; flaws and all,
He abandoned you not me, that isn't my fault.

You smiled in my face for twenty-two years,
Laughing as you watched me drown in my tears.

Him and I have lost all of this time,
Because you denied me release; in darkness I was confined.

You offered no remorse for lies you told and I caught,
Shame on you, as a Mother, for destroying what I sought.

You were my first teacher- I should know right from wrong,
But what kind of preacher teaches the Devil's song?

I am utterly ashamed; I've done one thing not so clever,
I allowed your lies and jealousy of me, Mother.

I wish I could trade one single goodbye,
You'd be dismissed from my life without a blink of an eye.

So name call me all want; sure I'll be ungrateful,
But stare in the mirror and reflect on who really was hateful.

Author's Note

...If you haven't already, please read my poem 'Father' first and then come back and read this one..:)...Would LOVE to know what you think..

Yes this poem, is also full of truth.

Reviews

[John Jackson (El Juero)]

Your words give me pause...I am both the child and the Father in similar situations.
I really related to almost all aspects of this piece. I know you could not make something as painful as this up. The writing has a melodic flow, considering the subject matter. I hope this is healing for you. I will check out your companion piece. Great poem.

[Rose Masen]

:D. Thank you, Karina, dearest. I'm amazed at how simply and profoundly you and a few of my other friends on here have taken and understood my writes so efficiently. :D

[Everett DeValle]

DEEP. Its tough to read poems like this because their are deep emotional wounds involved, yet I see beauty in your strength. A poignant write from one brave soul.