Father

Dedicated to my father; where ever you might be...

Father, oh how I wish you were near,
To save me from her wrath that I feel.

She lied and kept you distant from me,
Never allowing me to have the other half of me.

Your face I cannot put with memories,
For I have none to bear, and my dreams are hallucinating.

To touch, to feel, to know I'm your world,
My heart it aches to be daddy's little girl.

Twenty two years have gone, two children I've born,
Your absence, because of mother, has left me with scorn.

My curiosity sprang when I was a teen,
I longed for you always, but were nowhere to be seen.

Mother refused and I have not a right,
Respecting her feelings, I'm afraid to dream of you at night.

How I wish you were here to see how I've grown,
Though you're only in thought, I'm never alone.

I wonder where you are and how have you been,
The days pass by; seasons changing again.

This is me, my name is Rose,
Leaving my life, I know, is not what you chose.

Young and naive, my mother, surely you can't fault her,
Hello, Daddy, I too, am your daughter.

Curly chocolate brown hair in the wind it does rise,
Hazel and brown illuminate my eyes.

Through pain and missing I wish you were around,
I will never fail you, promise to make you proud.

So promise to find me and fill this void,
Let's not let another twenty two years pass because she wants to avoid.

Author's Note

Yes, this is for my Father. Yes, I'm 22 years old. And no I've never met him.

Did that answer the dying questions inside?

Reviews

[Theodore]

this is great well written nice flow keep up the work and never give up faith...

[lovejulez03]

Oh how I loved this piece!! Bravo! I know our situations are not the same, but my dad died when I was 7 and it has left me void. I always wondered if it would be worse to lose something you didn't have for that long or to miss something you never had at all. So just know that that poem affected me emotionally and I thought it was beautiful. It's real and true and from your heart, like every poem is (or should be).. but some are just so good that there's nothing to be fixed. I see nothing wrong with this piece, it's one of my favorites I'd say. :)

[TheFemininePad]

This brought me to tears Rose. I can feel your emotions behind this poem. I can't imagine what it must be like going through life not knowing who your father is, or even not meeting him. I know it can be painful, and your writing here demonstrates your longer to learn about your father. I have no suggestions on how to improve on what you have written.

[Celeste21]

It's sweet and poignant with eagerness to be known. I like how you described what you looked like in the piece. Giving your father an image of what possibly is the spitting image of himself.

[A]

This touched my heart very deeply, I miss my father very badly but for different reasons since he passed away couple of years ago, I really cannot imagine the pain you feel, I really hope you will meet him someday. Your poem is amazing
I'm sure it reached out to a large number of people
I sincerely hope everything works out for you.
Thank you for sharing.

[John Jackson (El Juero)]

Forgive a stranger for saying, but i think you can find him, with some work. Go for it! As Dylan sang, "when you got nothin', you got nothin' to lose". My prayers are with you.
thanks for the honest writing

[Everett DeValle]

Wow, I felt the emotional pain in this piece and I love that...I love how a poem can transcend to other people's lives and somehow relate to it, or at best, have an understanding. I hope you find peace in your search, or just peace knowing you Loved and tried.

[fernii]

WOW! I totally relate to this but in a different way. THis is a good poem and has so much depth and emotiion and feeling in it :)

[Angela]

Personal and painful. This is me, My name is Rose. The poem resonates with this message. Very good write.

[Rose Masen]

@ Chelsea- Oh how I wish to have a picture to see finally see if I resemble any part of him. He's a mystery to my memories, but not a stranger to my heart. I'm sorry for the strife you have gone through. And I appreciate you reaching out and trying to comfort me, as well. I've grown to not feel alone, but still do sometimes. Life is so mysterious sometimes.