Torment and Forgiveness

My, almost literal, ending.

I am me.
I can never be you.
I am silent.
You are rude.
Vicious and raw, your words, in my wounds,
I clench, I flinch, and I whimper, too.
You are you.
You can never be me.
You are loud.
I have silent reverie's.
Rough and cold, your feelings, in my soul,
You choke me, you beat me, deeper in this hole.
Abuse me, use me, rape me, shake me,
but in the end you will never break me.
Although I am shattered and battered and bruised,
this is my life, fragile pieces, given to you.
Nothing left, but your tightening embrace,
you beg for forgiveness of your brutal mistakes.
I lie here, waiting, expecting release,
agonized over your own begging plea's.
I become detached, you become melancholy,
All pain is released as my soul leaves my body.
I bid you farewell, you drown in your screaming,
searching hands grasp at nothing, but my physical being.
I begged you to stop when you had the chance,
your uplifted hand changed all of my plans.
You left me to crumble, death had it's gain,
I'm so sorry to say, I cannot return again.
My lifeless body, you hold in your arms,
I cringe at the sight of the physical harm.
For once and for all, my forever has come,
the years of torment, forever are gone.
Never forget me, let it be a reminder,
of the love I gave, in return, my body, you slaughtered.

Author's Note

You have all, now, looked from the outside in, into my once world. Literally.

Reviews

[Everett DeValle]

Wow, very raw...abuse is never a good thing, yet its in everyday life...sad but true...and yet you've captured that emotion you felt in that very moment...to make a reader feel what it feels to be in your shoes...mind you, its a few steps people will realize that its hard to fill those shoes you've walked in...it shows strength as person and what you've overcome, to where you are at now. It has that spoken words feel to it, that makes it feel raw and earthy.

[Thea Fuentebella]

so many dark spots...captivating

[Michael Jarrell]

Very good write... I'm glad you can use writing as a tool to cope with the affects of abuse. Let me know if you ever need someone to talk to

[Rose Masen]

@ Theodore- I have my moments of strength; I have not persevered too much as you might assume. But thank you, love.

[Theodore]

very well explained and im pretty sure you are a stronger person from that.

[Chelsea]

I love your style of poetry. Vivid images, creative words, what's not to like about it. A sad message though :( Very sad...

[Rose Masen]

@ Stephen- thank you, love.

[Steph's_romantic_myster..]

This is a very VERY expressive and an accurate portrayal of abuse in relationsships. It truly has me speechless

[TheFemininePad]

A dark poem detailing the emotions of abuse. I think you did a great job with this poem. The structure of the poem helps to see both sides of the same coin. Abuse can be one of the most difficult things to write about, but yet you manage to convey to the reader your emotions within this writing. The degree of difficulty increases if you experienced abuse before.

[Rose Masen]

Thank you, Ev. :)