Changing Aura's: Mid-life Crisis

I'm too young, too inexperienced.
All of this stress is really an inconvenience.

My mind is scattered, thoughts running loosely
I feel frozen yet in overdrive- my spirit's in neutral; uselessly.

I feel alone, once again, frightened by a feeling of guilt
Yet I've done nothing wrong but feel as though my life's axis is destined to tilt.

I can no longer comprehend the beginning or ending of my thoughts,
Like a toddler with an arithmetic worksheet; I'm lost.

I've never experienced the bucket-list of adventures,
yet I feel like a loner, with a carefree smile, I don't remember.

Mid-life crisis or stunning realization, I can't decide,
my life's an uproar, silent suffering, hoping my "book of life" can be revised.

Why has my life began churning with nauseating speed,
All I want is to be alone, in my thoughts, my heart has gayly agreed.

I need answers, I pray, and make attempts to clear my psyche,
but to no avail, I draw a sketch pad of blanks, and mind full of future fright.

I sense my aura changing as time ticks softly by,
viciously and playfully; light and dark, wet and dry.

My soul is dark, such beauty gives my inner abyss such delight,
A darkness as beautiful as the pristine moon erecting at night.

Author's Note

I'm at a point in my life where I feel as though I'm losing myself. So many thoughts all racing for the finish line, that's nowhere in sight.

Reviews

[Everett DeValle]

Such deep introspection in your contemplation, Rose...Your rhyme scheme is as crisp as ever...I understand, I pray that you get to see a light of joy, to experience things other than responsibilities and sacrifices.

[Rose Masen]

Thank you, Ev. Oddly enough I guess I've come to the realization that I'm too young to have such stress in my life, but too old to experience nothing more than responsibilities and sacrifices. Appreciate the review.

[Everett DeValle]

You're very welcome, Rose...I know you been through so much...such is life, yeah...you are never too old to experience things, it will happen, and like all things in life, you got to make it happen...dream it, and then do it. Keep your head up. :)