48 Hours/ 32nd Floor

I woke up to the sky raining heart shaped confetti
The sound of your voice drowning out the sadness
If I live till tomorrow it'll be another day on earth with your memories
Memories
Sudden movements move men to tears
The fear of death a landmark In a life filled with glory
I wear your heart as a badge on my fading body
How much longer are we to stand at attention?
My legs feel numb but the fear of losing you keeps me standing
Home seems close yet death seems far till they switch their roles and they begin to speak
We promise heaven's close because there's hell on earth
Yet all that never occurred to me
Lately I spend my days writing you letters
Ones you'll never get to see till after my death
A keepsake for a broken heart
I seem to play a fool in an army of men
Brainwashed into thinking they fight for their country
Is it bad to say none of that is of interest to me?
I fight for a cause much greater
I fight for a soul that outweighs their millions
I promise one day we'll be together, be it my bones or my entirety
I fear your tears more than I fear these bullets
You see bullets offer a promise of a quick death but your tears stained on my beating heart
I couldn't think of a death more painful
I'd rather much subject my body to war than enter a battlefield with a smile so familiar
Maybe that's why my cowardice could be perceived as courage
Another bomb goes off
Another soul leaves earth
We'll leave their corpses till the earth turns their tragedy into flowers
Can you think of a more poetic death?
My dear .........
Somedays your name escapes me
Your face an abstract painting of beauty I could once remember
Do not for one second think I have forgotten you
My mind isn't half what it used to be
In the madness I still see your eyes
Stare at me with shades of blue
Tick tock
Time seems to be passing by
I fear my death isn't far behind
I fear our dreams will slowly die
I fear my mind is becoming blind
My.