JE #2

JE #2

Alright Hope….I’m gonna be honest.

I didn’t think I would actually continue this.

But um, I dunno. I’ve been really down lately. I just. Really miss my friends.

Like, don’t get me wrong. I love Grace and all the new friends that I have made but I just miss my old friends. From before. They were something really special to me and I feel like I took for granted the time that I had with them.

I spent all my time worrying about school and work and other things instead of them and now that they’re gone I wish I hadn’t. I wish I had took the time to make time for them.

Cause now I have no time with them. And it freaking sucks.

Grace tries her best to make me feel better, but having her around just reminds me who I don’t have around anymore and it just kills me man.

Cas was my all time best friend. I had known her for eighteen years and now….like. I don’t even know where she is. If she’s alive or anything. And the worst part is. For the longest time I had hoped she was dead.

Now I just want her by my side again. What I wouldn’t give to have that. To feel her surprisingly warm hands wrapped around my shoulder, telling me everything’s going to be okay again.

I even miss her sister. She may had been a bit of an a*s every now and then but now I get why. This world is a s**t world and she had every right to be pissed at it. No amount of sugar-coating it will keep her from being right.

Don’t even get me started on Ethan and Aiden. Man, I can’t even write about it.

I just want my old life back. I want a redo. This new world is s**t. My old world is s**t. I know what to fix, just let me fix it. (And keep Grace and all my new friends in the process, I really love them and I don’t want to live in a world without them.)

HHHHHhhhhhh. Life. Sucks.

Okay well, I gotta get ready to go out and scavenge again. Maybe I’ll find one of my friends. I never do.

Well. That’s a lie. I found one, but not how I wanted to.

Anyways I’m getting yelled out so I can’t stall any longer. Gotta go.

Author's Note

So these are going to be spread throughout the story. Their won't be a lot of them, especially near the end. And I think I'm only gonna do like five or six of the. I haven't decided.

They're gonna be pretty random when they pop up, but the journal entries will have a lot to do with what was just brought up in the story. I'm thinking about making them out of order but I don't know. There's not gonna be a lot so I might just keep them in order.

Anyways, enjoy Hope's journaling and leave comments. Anything about grammar or punctuation will be helpful since Brendon isn't available.