In her feelings

If one day you notice that I took my distance from you
Please, don't blame me
You know that's not me
You know I can't help but take heed of you
Not even for a min'
Because
Even if I wanted
My mind and my heart wouldn't allow it
Even if I wanted
My whole body and my soul wouldn't give in
It's just that.. it's you
I just started giving back what I'm receiving
I just started reciprocating the same energy that you're giving
Sometimes I wish you teach how to ignore you
The same way you ignore me
Sometimes I wish to have the same heart as yours
So that I could behave just the way you do without feeling any remorse
Sometimes I wish to be you
Just to torture the hell out of you
With your indifference
But why would I bother myself?
You don't care, mehn!
Almost forgot you are heartless
Now that doesn't make any sense
Because
You said you loved me
Did you really mean it?
Oh, silly me, I believed it
Again I fell for the same trick
Like, damn, am I even learning?
Sometimes I wish
Oh, sometimes I just wish...

                                   Olivia Bant ✍🏾

Reviews

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

it is always shocking to me how much people don't care. i guess i'm just a sensitive person, but it really bothers me how selfish others are. this is not a world that works. so i feel your pain, anger, and frustration. this work is very raw and the temperature is palpable.

[Olivia Bant]

Thank you, Ern. I really appreciate it.

[emmajoygreen]

'Bleed throught poetry?' You forewarned me - and how! Your hurt stings and hurts, spat from the letters, your emotions in such pain and misery. Think this is based on truth, or, indeed the hurt has happened and is now being used to write incredibly raw thoughts ane feelings, Olivia. Great poem, sad as can be but.. worthy of both reading and remembering.

Happens:
'Did you really mean it?
Oh, silly me, I believed it
Again I fell for the same trick
Like, damn, am I even learning?
Sometimes I wish
Oh, sometimes I just wish...'