Bigger Plan

I done tried everything else. Thought I was livin' for

You, but really I was livin' for myself. All the drinkin'

and the smokin', the lustin', and the clubbin' got me

broken, and now I'm sittin' here and I'm hopin' that I

can make things right with You. That's something I don't

know how to do. A kind stranger told me all I gotta do is

call on You. You'll pick me up from where I was dropped

and make me brand new.

 

 

I sit and think about this, even while I'm dwelling proudly

in my sin. How can I make things right again? Those thoughts

are quickly erased everytime a girl is up in my face. Everytime

my boy has a party at his place. The music sounds good, the

weed and the girls, they make me feel good. I feel things I

never thought I would. But man, I wish I could... I wish I could

just turn away. My mom say, "Rashad, sweetie, I'm prayin' for you

everyday."

 

 

When I'm crusin' through the streets, invadin' the ladies' sheets,

I feel no shame and I feel no pain. I don't even hear God callin'

my name. You see, He tries to warn me, but I don't listen. Yet

I claim to be a Christian. Rockin' this diamond cross around my

neck, believin' it will protect me from harm, got a Bible verse

tatted on my arm. And I got sinful music bumpin' in my car,

convinced that I go hard. But the real prize is still so far, and I

choose to avoid that. Oblivious to the church tellin' me Christ

is comin' back. They tell me He won't save me because I don't

really know Him. I roll my eyes, turn away, choosing to ignore

them.

 

 

I continued to sleep around, until I found, that all that got me

was a couple babies, and a trip to the doctor discovering a couple

STDs…

 

 

It's so easy for the devil to come in and attack me, take me

away from where I'm supposed to be. I'm paying the price

for my sins, but I've repented and been forgiven for them, so

once again God wins. It's all about having faith and I've been

learning that each day. I'm a child of God, the devil can't take

that away. Yes, I will be tempted, but I'm determined to push

past it. And with God, I most definitely can. Because for me,

He has a bigger plan.

Reviews

[Hello, Elle]

Holy goo. I really appreciate how the first line made me immediately intrigued... Poems don't usually do that for me! Very impressive work, and I'm not just saying that.
"It's so easy for the devil to come in and attack me, take me

away from where I'm supposed to be. And I'm paying the price

for my sins, but I've repented and been forgiven for them, so

once again God wins."
Pure gold.