Ignore me. Please.

Should I sit still and scream or whisper?
Your inquisition is a kind gesture
Next time just be a better listener
Hear these words as anything but reverb.
This is the original signal played out of earshot
Or at a quieter frequency than what you
Love nodding your head to.

I read the bible, well part of it
And can't come to grips with the fact
That everyone dies at the end.
Unless they suck an invisible dick
And are tied for God's best friend.
If you agree, don't disagree with that idealist,
Converse until you both can be one fist
Held beside all others but in a different color.
Being a martyr isn't cool so much as its tiring.
If you were really trying, you wouldn't be admiring
The loudest voice or prettiest pitch,
You'd be me.
Or at least thats what I think.
But thats been proven to be a misguiding
Voice when I choose to search for good advice.

Please relight my lights, my neighbors
Bore you better with a styrofoam Santa
That glows and has an intrinsic inanity that wallows
When no one is looking. If I make my bed,
Dinner, and rent, could you embody my mother's
Acceptance? Woman or man, we plead for
Precedence. Settle with presidents, ships that sink,
Or a television's presence. I'm guessing
This makes very little sense to you.
So I ask that you find it in your heart to lower my volume

My life is a concept album and depression is the
Center theme. I wonder how it'll end.
I wish Roger Waters fathered me.
The only thing I'm proud of knowing
Is that God isn't listening. And not even that is fact
Turn the channel and ignore me. I need a reason
To kill myself and negligence is as good as any.

 

A swan song or a cry for helps. You decide.