The girl wears shades over her eyes
But yet she sees.
She sees the pain and the torture and the sorrow and the fear
She sees the never ending fight for survival
The fight that goes on even after it is clear that there will be no winner
She has experienced the true darkness that comes only after that last glimmer of hope has gone away
The girl has bared witness to all of these things.
But yet she sees.
She sees the laughter and the pride and the joy that surrounds her
She sees the reason for life, and its hope and eternal forgiveness
She sees the friends and the family and all of the people who have been beside her the whole time.
But yet she cannot block out the pain.
She feels the fear and the defeat and the knife against her skin
She feels the comfort of the pills and the solace that they could bring
She knows what has happened in the past
And she knows how to make the memories disappear.
But yet she knows.
The future is the one thing left undecided
The future is something she can change
The pain and the torture and the sorrow and the fear are temporary
But the family and friends and possibilities they bring
Those could last forever.
And so finally.
The girl puts down her knife and the bottle of pills
And stares out at the night which calls to her
The endless possibilities that now wait for her on the horizon
She sees all of these things.
And she takes off her shades.