Chapter 2: Why didn't I notice you before?

As we talked I learned more about you and that's where things got real for me.

The next morning I didn't think much of what had happened previously with mother. Thankfully, we talked it out and she seemed to be back in a decent head space. Truly what was on my mind was you. The new boy who had been in my class all year but I didn't take notice to until now? It was still boggling in my mind how you had reacted to my tears and how fast you swooped in to save the day. However, being the new kid everyone knew everything about you. Most importantly that you had a fiance back in Germany. Remembering that I brushed off the slight butterflies you gave me when I walked into first period and found you sitting in the seat by mine.

"You don't mind if I sit here, right?" I asked.

"No, no, of course not. I just thought I'd sit by you instead of well them." He pointed to the group of disgustingly popular students.

I agreed and class continued on as usual. Yes we talked but oddly enough it wasn't any deep conversation like the one from the day before had been. But when the bell rang and I took my time to put away my things I noticed you waiting by the door. 

"Are you waiting on me..?" I asked confused.

"Oh yeah I thought we could walk to our next period together since they are right across the hall from each other." You said very nonchalantly.

And so we did. You walked me to class which I'll admit made my stomach do a flip. I was so taken back by this boy who paid attention to me. I guess if you consider the fact that I've always chased boys and never had been chased myself it makes sense. However, once again I had to remind myself that you were in fact taken and I couldn't be THAT girl. Opening my email I saw that a message was already awaiting me. 

You: Hey, how's class?

Me: Uhhh tbh idk yet I mean it just started

You: Oh right lol

Me: Yeah I'll let you know how it goes I guess lol

The conversation was awkward to say the least. Well, at first it was. As the hour and a half long period went on we got to the deep conversations again. 

Me: I like your bracelet.

You: Oh yeah it has my girlfriends name and our anniversary date.

Me: Oh that's cute

If I'm being honest with myself the little butterfly inside me was shot and killed at that moment. I knew you had a girlfriend and were off limits but I was still allowed to have a crush right? Regardless, I continued to ask about your relationship and tell you how cute I thought you two were. In reality I kinda thought long distance relationships were garbage but who was I to talk I hadn't had a boyfriend since eighth grade. For some reason you started to talk about your downs with her. Like how she betrayed you with your best friend. Things like that and I was really confused how you were so open with me about it. After the whole conversation I thought she was trash and you deserved better but I kept it to myself. 

Again time went on and we continued to spill our souls out to each other via email. It was weird how I was able to tell you so much that there was somethings I told you that I hadn't told anyone else. I loved it. That I could tell you my story the way I knew it without anyone else putting garbage in your mind about me. You sat and listened through it all. 

As the semester came to an end I told myself that we probably would to. So desperate to keep what we had going I suggested that we add each other on social media. Instead you gave me your phone number and a million and one more butterflies. Nevertheless, I took it and immediately put it in my phone. We rode the bus home together that day even though we both hated everyone else on it. As soon as you got off you waved to me and gestured towards your phone implying that I should look at mine. You texted me as soon as you got inside your house. I thought it was cute and I'd be lying if i said it didn't make me blush.

Winter break was here and I was excited to see where our friendship would go from here. I was excited to spend most of my break on my phone texting you and talking about everything in the Universe.