A Midnight Poem

A Midnight Poem

A Poem by whyamihere
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written by the insomniac

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Do you remember standing by the river last year?
When your hand intertwined with mine, like hand holding s***s
and I know it's cliche, but back then when I didn't have the guts
To say how you elevated me to the next level
I hope you know you were dead special
And when you showed me your cuts I wish I'd tried to discuss
to help you instead of skate around the topic
I must have made you feel microscopic
Now all I've left is 26 tools to try to apologize
I'm so sorry I broke ties, I can't meet your eyes.
I was so scared of what you would do
If we went forward and I let you through
my shell, because though I hate it I'm weak
I'm a freak when I speak
no matter how much I seek to say what I mean
My words get jumbled up till they're too bleak to recognize.
I'm not nice, I've tried to end my own life once or twice
everything I touch is poison and I should have known you weren't an exception
by now it's too late to ask for redemption
I just need one more late night by the creek with you
before you'd withdrew
at the same time, I know you deserve better
I don't know why I wrote this scarlet letter
You mean the world to me even if we're no longer together
or you did
amid all the chaos something was lost
the light seemed to dim
making my eyes spill over the rim
You see I don't make friends easy
When I try to talk to new people my lungs get queasy
Staring back at their beady eyes so busy and needy
makes me dizzy
Sometimes I think I'm from another species
One that's defense mechanism is to have my brain turn to feces when someone sees me
And I'm so alone, I have a place, but no one to call home
Poetry just distracted me from sadness like a dog with a dry bone
Now is a quarter to twelve
And I'm checking out my memories of you from my brains old dusty shelve
The pages are a little torn
But within in them, you smile at me, though I notice it's worn
wondering what might have happened if we'd worked things out
Inviting my doubt to take a seat in my house
Imagine waking up next to you
But my bed is cold and hearts turned blue
I know it sounds greedy
but I wonder If you're imagining us to

© 2017 whyamihere


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whyamihere
true story poem

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Sometimes we realize later. It happens with all. Nicely written craft.

Posted 7 Years Ago


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whyamihere

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much!

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Added on January 25, 2017
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