A Midnight PoemA Poem by whyamiherewritten by the insomniac
Do you remember standing by the river last year?
When your hand intertwined with mine, like hand holding s***s and I know it's cliche, but back then when I didn't have the guts To say how you elevated me to the next level I hope you know you were dead special And when you showed me your cuts I wish I'd tried to discuss to help you instead of skate around the topic I must have made you feel microscopic Now all I've left is 26 tools to try to apologize I'm so sorry I broke ties, I can't meet your eyes. I was so scared of what you would do If we went forward and I let you through my shell, because though I hate it I'm weak I'm a freak when I speak no matter how much I seek to say what I mean My words get jumbled up till they're too bleak to recognize. I'm not nice, I've tried to end my own life once or twice everything I touch is poison and I should have known you weren't an exception by now it's too late to ask for redemption I just need one more late night by the creek with you before you'd withdrew at the same time, I know you deserve better I don't know why I wrote this scarlet letter You mean the world to me even if we're no longer together or you did amid all the chaos something was lost the light seemed to dim making my eyes spill over the rim You see I don't make friends easy When I try to talk to new people my lungs get queasy Staring back at their beady eyes so busy and needy makes me dizzy Sometimes I think I'm from another species One that's defense mechanism is to have my brain turn to feces when someone sees me And I'm so alone, I have a place, but no one to call home Poetry just distracted me from sadness like a dog with a dry bone Now is a quarter to twelve And I'm checking out my memories of you from my brains old dusty shelve The pages are a little torn But within in them, you smile at me, though I notice it's worn wondering what might have happened if we'd worked things out Inviting my doubt to take a seat in my house Imagine waking up next to you But my bed is cold and hearts turned blue I know it sounds greedy but I wonder If you're imagining us to
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1 Review Added on January 25, 2017 Last Updated on January 25, 2017 Tags: #emotional, #nigiht, #poetry, #poem AuthorwhyamihereLeaveMeAlone, ORAboutI am the chosen one. Kind of lost it over the years though more..Writing
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