Mystery, who are you..?

I''m having a hard time understanding these feelings...

What's wrong with me...?

There is something here that I obviously can't see...

The razors dull, but I can't stop the bleeding.

I'm on my knees, begging and pleading.

Air is disappearing, I've stopped breathing.

Blurry vision, black mist. What am I seeing?

I know you're still here, alive and well.

But as you're happy, my life goes to hell.

I miss your hugs, your kisses, your smell.

These feeling I'm feeling....well....

Suicide is too easy.

Cutting myself is just too cliché.

Overdose is boring.

Nothing helps my pain.

I'm suffering, And I know why.

You have better options, this makes me cry...

Every laugh I laugh is just another lie.

I ask myself over and over, "Why?"

I'm surprised I'm not locked up, I'm going insane.

Pain....pain....pain!

The fire inside..the growing flame.

Ever since September, nothing's been the same.

It's not your fault, but apparently it's mine.

That's what I think, every think is black inside.

Friend and family say,"You'll be fine."

lies...lies...lies!

None of them have seen me cry.

I miss you

I cry for you

I suffer for you

I try for you

You're everything to me

you're all I have

You give faith to me

you're my equation, my gravity and mass.

Baby...I...love...you...

Reviews

[Wolfwind]

Very emotionally charged, flowing with the colors of confusion. What you've written here makes perfect sense. The harder part is acting upon what one finds, when they come to the understanding. I wish you well.

Aaron