The mask

My thoughts could eat me alive if I let them , I feel so empty . I know I'm living , I know I'm breathing but yet I feel so dead. When people say they feel empty , you think they would feel no emotions at all that's not the case. I feel like no matter what I do this empty feeling inside me lingers. I can be around so many people and yet feel so alone always lost in my own thoughts.  I feel confined to these 4 wall around me , everydays the same routine , just a different day, a different order.  I know my monsters are inside of me.. I must forget about the past and move on , the past holds me back, but how can you forget the very memories and the very things that hurt you , that make you who you are today? Everyday I'm forced to put on a fake smile , a fake laugh, a mask . I wish someone would look past it and see that I'm really not happy but I am empty. Every person I get close to I push away , some would say its out of fear but deep down I'm the only one who knows the real answer to that question , its not fear I'm afraid of someone truly knowing the real me , knowing all the thoughts in my head , knowing my secrets but most of all knowing why I am the way I am . Can someone really love the real me or would they just leave like the rest? My mind is a scary place and the mask I wear is the person everyone sees, but honestly no one knows the real me . If someone knew the real me they wouldn't see a Strong girl who's always smiling, but the person behind the mask who's lost and always crying. Life doesn't make sense to me but I will figure out this puzzle .

Reviews

[‘Thoughts In Time..]

You are the one to complete the puzzle one step at a time- loving yourself and not worrying about what others may think as they might not even think the way you think- and the ones that matter mind and those who mind don’t matter- you are who you are and we all have flaws and cracks that’s how the light gets in- the right ones will accept you as you are if not then they not important and don’t belong in your life if they are kind loving gentle souls they’ll love you as you are- judgement is not love- powerful write🌹

[Iremainsilent95]

Thank you i appreciate your feed back

[‘Thoughts In Time’🌹]

My pleasure🌹

[Coyote Poetry]

Most of us don't show real face.
If someone knew the real me they wouldn't see a Strong girl who's always smiling, but the person behind the mask who's lost and always crying. Life doesn't make sense to me but I will figure out this puzzle ."
We show real face to few people. This is sad. Thank you for sharing your poetry and your thoughts. I enjoyed your work.
Coyote

[CLR9]

Hey,

The key to the puzzle is the Bacon King from Burger King.

You know, it makes you feel less empty. But who knows, I might be wrong.

[John the Baptist]

The outer reflects the inner. Learn to go within and deal with it, and the outside will take care of itself.