Inside my head

I would like to think I'm doing better but honestly I still haven't fought my demons .
I've taught myself how to go day to day faking a smile , when I just want to take my life somebody hand me a knife .
Mentally I'm drained day after day I'm fighting the urge to feel .
I feel so numb yet so dumb .
I seem to feel everything at once when I can't even deal .
My mind is wandering , My mind is spinning . where do I belong is anybody even there ?

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

You asked hard questions in the poetry. Some questions are never answered. We must find purpose and reason to be alive. Old wise saying. At least one time a day. Do something you enjoy. Powerful and worthwhile thoughts made the reader think. Thank you for sharing the amazing words and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Lorry]

A very apt title. Only in our confused and over exposed minds, can we feel numb, nothing and everything, and trying to make sense out of it, as well as play the parts we play, friend, colleague, partner, child and everything in between.
when I feel overwhelmed, I try to concentrate on the moment between breathi/g in and out, whilst thinking to myself "if I wrote an autobiography, no one would believe it." And then I realise, I wouldnt either.
Hope you find your answers.

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Where do I belong . I like this last line. This what I asking everyday. Who am I and what's my purpose here in this strange and unhostile world. I like your honesty and how you straight rise your questions. It's seems world at your head it's quiet harmful. I had this before too. But sometimes change world at my head became my shelter there 8s now so many no exist friends who keeping me on the life and stories of hope and love which will be er take place at my real life.,