Dear Razor

Dear Razor

The pain was immense.The demons in my head screaming your nothing but s**t.So blinded by the pitch black.Staring in the mirror at the monster I created.The tears and waste of make up on their cruelty.Freak.Devil Worshipper.Monster.Ugly.Emo.Broken glass.Self esteem shot to hell.So much stress.That's when I met you.You shone in my desperate eyes.The first taste of your evil was a sedative.Numbing momentarily.The toll eased until I saw what you truly portrayed.Soon it was long sleeves,bandages,and excuses to cover up the damage....

So now...

I won't use you anymore to make the pain ease and I will stop scarring myself with the touch of your steely tendrils.No more slitting,slicing,and dicing to keep from crying.Can't stand the sting anymore.Every time I used you to find myself I realize I was just disconnecting who I really was.And all the blood you wrought will never be yours again.

I am not scared anymore of the storm.When I failed all those nights and picked you up I was a fool.You are nothing but the past.When my misery made me do what I vowed I would not.All the stares and the snickers can't drive me to do this madness.You tempt me still but I am better than this s**t.

All I need now is to find the light ...the one that happiness brings...depression you can kiss my a*s goodbye.I am still a long way from my goal but I'll walk this road of sheer hell to seek out my destiny.