Searching

How can I still be in love?
When I'm losing faith in the Lord above
How can I give my heart away?
When it's always the one who has to pay?
How can I believe in you?
When you are two faced too?
How can I trust those words you whisper to me at night?
When you won't even stay and fight?
How can I love you when you talk to her all the time?
When in the girls code book that's a crime?
How can I pretend I'm trying?
When in my soul I know I'm lying?
How can I say it doesn't hurt me at all?
When all I want is that to be in that call?
How can I lie and say I'm okay?
When I just want someone to take my pain away?
How can I act like I'm so calm and fine?
When in reality I want you to be mine?
How can I be okay with me hiding how I feel?
When I need to know if how I feel is real?
How can I speak what's really on my mind?
When those words are so hard to find?
How can I when i cant find myself in me?
When right now, I'm not who I wanna be?