They're Back😔

My moments are just these moments of depression.

Right now I'm trying
I don't see the achievement in lying
I should be so happy right now because of us
So why is there a hole in the trust?
Finally got to have that love I've always wanted to have
You are the only one who can always make me laugh
So why is it right now I just wish to cry?
Why i have that urge to say goodbye?
Funny cause I thought you felt the same
Guess I don't feel like playing that old game
For once I wanted to believe
You could possibly actually love me
Yes I know you do
Hell I love you
But last i checked love doesn't go get that gun
One doesn't ask one out then 5 hours later wish to be done
My moments are back again
Here I thought I could actually win
Stupid of me to think I could change who I was
I mean who really does?
Changing myself is a struggle I'm not ready for
Yet I know I can't go back to who I was before.

Reviews

[Teddybearlee]

I love it, absolutely, and I think I relate. I believe we can "change". I suffer from depression, anxiety, esteem issues...and it was almost the destruction of my relationship...but I loved her so much, after a massive fight, and a week break up, I realized I had to put these demons to rest, she was worth it, we were worth it, and I did...instantly, for love...and if you find a love worth it, you will find a way, to silence it, you will find a way to put your faith in that love...even though now, it didn't work out, she let her demons win out, and things for me are worse than ever...when things were good with her, and they were for years after I made this vow to myself to change, I was the happiest I had been in all my life. Wishing you well, and hope I'm not too far off base.