Decisions

In a blink of an eye you're gone

That split second I'm just suppose to move on

The other was long gone before I could have memories of

From her, there was nothing including love

One protected me and took care of me

He didn't ever let me see

Crying at night for her to come rescue this little child

Cause that little girls life is getting wild

Trying to save her from the pain

Allowed another to change my last name

Back from the grave she's just a ghost

Hurting cause she's the one I'm suppose to love the most

I've only trusted him without a doubt

There's many things I don't know about

Talking like she's been here from day one

Am I suppose to believe her when she says "she's done?"

Ripped from my life, he had to just fade

Still don't understand why I picked up that blade

Abandoned from the one who's suppose to love and care

Now she says she can finally be there

Planned this whole thing out for who knows how long

He's the one who reminded me how I'm strong

She wants to have a second chance

Maybe she looks okay at least with a glance

He wants me away from all of here

Should I be shedding some tears?

A total stranger I'm suppose to call mother

There's no way I'd pick her over my brother

Next Saturday's when it all goes down for me to say goodbye

So many questions but can't tell me why

And yet I'd rather go with the one who has always been there

Then the one who just now says she cares.