Hidden

So I finally figured out a place

You don’t see the disguise on my face

The tears I’m so strongly holding back

How many more days until I have to pack?

Peace, relief, anxious, scared are inside of me

Yet a smile is on my face wouldn’t you agree?

Masking these emotions storming in through my mind

I can say I will be very kind

Since I no longer call you what you are

Would this distance be so far?

Don’t get me wrong I somewhat want to see you

And trust me I know how badly you guys want to see me too

My breath I refuse to let stay in

Guess this is about to begin

Nor a nightmare or a dream

It’s like a combination or so it seems

But hidden under all this I’m more than scared

Something I feel like you just can’t be prepared

This fear is like no other

Who’d thought the one to save me was my birth mother.