Unexplainable

Letting go

And I can't even imagine putting this into words.
It's like I tried but failed in a state of hurt.
There you were, you stood perfectly before me,
but all this time it was a plan to destroy me.

I can't speak; I can't eat; I can't feel or dream
without your eyes seeming to scream at me.
You'd think I'd learn after all I went through,
but of course I eagerly fell hopelessly into you.

Goodbye: it's such desperate a word of distress.
but it seems to be the word of my life nonetheless.
It still a shock to me how I took you in-
I was oblivious and forgot the fact that I never win.

But in my dreams the stars still spell your name,
and your smile is something I can't shake away.
You're just someone a girl won't soon dismiss.
A little crush is something so way beyond this.

Meeting you was something I will never forget,
I promise I will run and melt if I see you again.
All I can say is I wish you luck with the girl of your dreams,
for I know I must wait for someone else, cause that will never be me.

Author's Note

will edit soon.. this is just to get my feelings out.