It Was Warm and Raining

I'm a moron

I thought it could be difference for once,
That maybe I could leave behind the booze and s***s.
I thought I finally found something real-
But it seems it was my attention they wanted to steal.
God, I'm such a f*****g idiot for thinking this way.
All by myself is the way it should've stayed.

I trusted her more than anyone ever,
And now I feel broken & I don't think I'll get better...
I was doing so well until she came along,
Then she made me feel so great I couldn't put it in a song.
I've made the transition from great to awful so many times,
I just never considered that this affection was all in my mind.

I tricked myself into falling for her,
I never really felt a thing.
I never considered having her child,
Or buying her any sort of a ring:
These are the things I'll tell myself every night before I fall asleep,
Until I can no longer find the strength to fight the will to leap...