Shattered Self

The unexplainable can not be explained. Hurt, sadness, solace, all felt at once for no reason at all.

Have you ever felt so closed in that space doesn't even matter?

Everything around seems insignificant now and you slowly drown under water.

Your heart still beats but you can't feel it.

Your body is there and your soul is empty.

 

The sadness begins to crawl up your spine and swallows you whole.

This unforsaken feeling of doubt and hurt.

You beat yourself up thinking that is the solution.

You continue knocking on the door towards the future but it is sealed shut with lock, key and various passwords.

 

Where are you?

Where do you wish to go?

You shut people out

You wish to be alone

 

Complain all you want about what your heart needs.

But have you had a second to even consider why it needs anything at all?

Distraught.

Fight with one self.

 

FIN

Reviews

[AaronFreitas]

This is a beautiful piece. It seems like a piece so truthful pouring from your heart. I have been there in that same place, felt those same feelings and it sucks. Keep fighting through it, only you can change the feelings with time :)

[Princ3ss_26]

Those are the times when I suddenly feel lost and alone. With no feeling whatsoever and so I beat myself down even further. It creeps up on you and you can't seem to fix it no matter what you do. It happens every once in a while. Thank you for the supportive words. :)

[AaronFreitas]

I know how you feel... if you read through my poems you see when it happens to me as well. At least we can write about it and it helps to get it out and find others to talk to about it :)

[Princ3ss_26]

that is so true!!!! The best part about writing for me is knowing that I am releasing all of my emotions from my fingertips onto some paper and realize that I was able to put into words everything that is bothering me. That to me is fascinating.

[AaronFreitas]

Yeah I hear ya. I held so much in when I stopped writing and to write and get it out is a much healthier release. I've found that theres a lot of good people on here and it's a nice little community to share in so it definitely helps.

[Princ3ss_26]

I'm glad that at least writing is a sense of self therapy for you and that it provides a chance to simply let out what troubles you especially when you feel that you don't have someone to hear you out or understand you, writing is universal it doesn't matter the language or culture you are from, it is as you mentioned, a community amongst itself. Where writers and people can be their true selves and not feel judged or hurt in the matter. Just anonymous people that share your interest in writing your feelings out in the best way you know how. Sometimes that release is just the way to go.

[AaronFreitas]

Aww I love the way you think!

[Princ3ss_26]

awww thanks! :)

[Lola_Bee]

ah fighting internally never stops unless you say it aloud and accept it. lovely write, i enjoyed it. great job