Fireworks

I've recently has my heart broken for the first time.

I met a boy
who lights the fireworks in my chest
he brought me so much joy
but I was not the best
I hate that even the smallest voice you put out, whether being meaningless texts or mentioning me online, fills my chest with such emotion
I cannot describe it
This poem was supposed to rhyme but I started feeling too much
I want to burst
Because I will never feel your lanky body around mine
Your arms
Or see the look in your eyes when you're about to kiss me
Did you know that you literally took my breath away?
I would usually gasp a little on accident when you kissed me
God this hurts
I feel like a piece of me has been ripped out of my chest
I almost wish we never dated just so you would still be present in my life
flirting with me like normal, god.
God, why was I not enough? I could have others but I don't want them.
They aren't you
I would give anything to go back and relive it
Because now I'm just sitting in my room thinking about all of the times we were invincible and-
YOU'RE JUST SO YOU
I'M NEVER GOING TO FIND ANOTHER YOU

F**k tall, blonde boys with sea foam eyes
You left a hole in the already vacant shell of a suit I call my body
Why light the fireworks inside my chest? I just end up burnt

Author's Note

sad, shitty poetry