Alone and Depressed

Drama, drama, drama

People blame me

For something he did

Then little b*****s yell at me

I cry

Parents fight

Make me cry more

Writing this

Make me cry more

I want to kill myself

Then in heaven nobody would

Yell at me,

Make me cry,

Or feel like crap

Only time I cry in heaven

Would be from happiness,

Laughter

I can just picture it:

I kill myself somehow,

People be happy, don’t care.

He would say, “Yay! Now no dumbasses!”

I ask him if he would be sad if I died

He said, “Sad, but not cry.”

I’m lying in bed while writing this

Making my pillow and half my face wet

I cry more and more

Never ending…

 

He makes me feel like crap

Say mean things

Thinks he’s cool cuz he have a girlfriend.

She’s not even pretty.

She’s fat,

Ugly,

Spoiled

He says he’s prettier than all of my friends.

He makes me cry

Long, long time

He doesn’t care

As long as he has a girlfriend

And she’s “pretty”

He’s the coolest guy in school

Minutes pass by

They seem like hours

Crying, crying

5, 10, 15, 20, 25, 30 minutes

Never ending

My face is completely wet now

He says it’s my fault

“WHAT DID I EVER DO?”

 

He call me Dumbass and B***h

Hurt my feelings so much

I think he is soulless,

Or doesn’t have a heart

Nothing can cheer me up

Not ice cream, love, music, not even a million dollars.

35, 40, 45, 50, 55, 1 hour of crying and loneliness

I ask him, “Do you have a heart?”

He reply, “Yea, but it doesn’t really care for you right now, it only cares for one person.”

I ask if his girlfriend is that ‘one person’

He said it is

And that’s not heartless?!?

He doesn’t even care about his family

He has no soul,

No heart,

No brain,

No anything.

Callin’ me a b***h?

He’s the b***h where I’m standing

            

I will always be empty

For nobody cares

If I’m alive or not

 

 

Author's Note

100% true

Reviews

[Gomer LePoet]

Wow! This is quite overwhelming with sadness, pain, lack of self. Such serious thoughts for such a young soul with an entire lifetime of hugs, kisses, loves, worries, cries, friends, accomplishments, successes, failures yet to achieve. take a long look in that mirror and see the beauty and intelligence that others have yet to discover. give them time to understand. One day they will realize what a special prize you are.

[SkrillexLover :)]

That is so sad!! D: Great job though!

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i can feel every emotion! lots of hate and truth :) loved it

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very nice poem!!!!!!! i really loved this!!!!

[Destiny Crawford]

This is filled with sadness and depression. It is good but I feel like I want to read something happy from you. This is truly a great piece. Thanks for sharing. :)

[Trusting]

I will always be empty

For nobody cares

If I’m alive or not

Athiest or not,someone does love you. He gave his life for you and will never forget you or hate you even if you sinned.

[SlightlyOdd]

This is a good expression of how we feel when were being dumped on but remember if someone makes you feel that crappy is only because they're trying to make themselves feel less crappy and someone's always left when someone dies thinking like no one would notice if you died is wishful thinking and selfish to because there will always be someone to miss you if the person makes you feel like this then tell them it will all work out