Demon's Claws

Feeling as the demon claws my mind,

Is what I want something I'll ever find.

What's in my mind is not misunderstood,

I am afraid to go after something good.

In my mind there is a future so clear,

It is something that I want without fear.

It's the life I've always had in my dreams,

It's the life that silences all of my screams.

Then there is also what's on the other hand,

You're there and help me be able to stand.

You're such a good thing for me in my life,

When I'm with you I don't feel any strife.

No one understands me better than you,

No one can see in me all the good you do.

I love you and never want you to leave,

Losing you something I would always grieve.

I lay here looking at the two paths before,

Having no idea what each would implore.

Do I let go of the ideas within my mind,

Then see if there is a path there to find.

Could both our dominant traits coincide,

Or would they create new rifts inside.

Then I could also keep taking a breather,

Just potentially ending up with neither.

Now I lay feeling this demon's claws,

Tearing and showing me all my flaws.

Can anyone ever see me the way you do,

Or worse will I keep looking and lose you.