One Blast

I know all too well the feel,

I have tasted the cold steel.

That chamber in my mouth,

Ready for a trip down south.

Finger laid there on the trigger,

The fear inside growing bigger.

Different from the past times,

One blast to end the rhymes.

A little squeeze to end the pain,

The thoughts in my head slain.

Deep breath in, sigh, now no damns,

Squeeze trigger, click...... it jams.

Drop the gun and I begin to cry,

What in the hell did I just try.

Now tears flooding the floor,

Wishing help was at the door.

Scared and feel completely alone,

Would anyone care if I was gone.

Drag myself to bed and try to sleep,

Price I almost paid was to steep.

Close my eyes to my inner cries,

Hope over night the pain dies.

Hope to wake up to a new day,

One that I can feel a new way.