The Blade

Where does it start and where will it end,
All I know is my feelings start to blend.
Love and hate are now nothing but a blur,
Especially when it all comes down to her.
Don't know differences between up and down,
My whole world seems upside down.
I can't tell if I will ever rebound,
Or if my love will ever be found.
I feel just like a pathetic clown,
always wearing nothing but a frown.
I know there is a lot that I lack,
I know my hearts always under attack.
Just to so how much I am afraid,
I have had to hide every single blade.