Untitled/Ch. OneA Chapter by JessiThe first chapter, introducing Anna and her questioning of Who is God, and her doubts of her impending forced marriage.hallenges the religious cult she’s
been brought up in, and dare to believe that God’s love could be so much more
than the angry iron fist she has always known, and to love an outsider from a
completely other world…Her world will crumble. Everything she loves will be
ripped away. Can she survive it? Chapter One
Thick fog nestled the
small village, enveloping it along with autumnal color and morning’s dew. Birds
chirped, awaking the sun and bidding all life to embrace the day. Bare feet slid from a crisp bed and onto wooden plank
floors. The floor length white nightgown made a solemn swish as it brushed
against the floor. Mama stood at the stove stirring a steaming pot. Papa sat
at the table, bent over his knees, tying his heavy boots. “Good morning.” Papa glanced at her. She loved his rugged face with his
graying beard and weathered eyes. There was always a warmth about him that made
her feel safe. “Good morning, Anna.” Papa’s big hands enveloped the pipe
that had been held between his chapped lips. Mama turned, a wooden spoon in her hand with steam
rolling from it. “Go wake Seth and Gabriel.” The boys shared a room in their small log house. “Wake up, boys. Come on. Time for chores.” They shifted
in their beds with muffled groans. “Come on.” When they started rising she left them and went to her
room, where she pulled one of her simple, ankle length dresses from the closet.
Freshly washed, it smelled of mama’s homemade soap, and then the scent of
nature caught in the very fibers of it as it had dried outside. Tights on next,
and then simple black shoes with laces. Anna braided her hair and left it trailing down her back.
Anna set the wooden oak table with plates and silverware.
Papa came in with fresh milk. The boys were still out feeding and watering the
animals. They would be back soon, starving and eating portions meant for two of
papa. Mama smiled. “Are you excited for the youth gathering
tonight?” Anna nodded. “Yes. Lily is supposed to walk there with me
tonight.” Fall had begun to nestle itself around them, in the
trees, in the sky, in beautiful burning colors. Every change of season the
youth would have a gathering while Bishop talked to them, then they would sing,
eat and talk. “This may be your last season to go,” Mama said with a
wink. Anna forced her fear away into the darkest corner of her
mind. “Yes, I know.” “You’ll be sixteen in less than a week.” She didn’t need reminding. “By winter you may be a bride.” She forced a smile. I’m
not ready, Lord. “I hope so.” That was what she was supposed to say. All
the young girls her age were excited and beaming. Sixteen meant you could be
chosen in the marriage season. The Bishop would choose you as a mate for who he
saw fit. Papa smoked his pipe quietly. He knew her better than
anyone. And he knew that she wanted more time. If the Bishop chose her a groom
next week, or next month, she would have to obey him. But her heart would not. Obedience. Always
be obedient to the Bishop and to your parents. God will shine on you if you do.
Mama had said that
countless times. Steaming oatmeal was dished out between them all. Anna
could barely find the appetite to pick at her small portion. The thought of
being given away terrified her. She loved being home with her parents and
brothers. Mama singing at night as she finished doing her daily duties. Papa
sitting in a chair with his pipe and an old book in hand. Sometimes he read to
them. Something Anna wished so much that she could do. Only males were taught
to read and write. Women have no need
of these things, Anna. We take care of our families. That is all we must know
how to do. Mama never second
guessed anything like Anna. She was an angel. If her parents, or Bishop knew
the horrible doubts that crossed her mind, she would be forced into a fast for
days and possibly face a beating until she was cleansed of it. After breakfast she was in charge of collecting and
folding the laundry, scrubbing all the floors with mama, dusting, making the beds,
and then the windows. She finished dutifully. “May I go for a walk, Mama?” Mama was resting for a moment. She was tired these days.
Massaging her temple with one hand and holding a cup of coffee with the other,
she nodded. “Be back within an hour and a half, Anna. We’ve bread to
bake and a cake to finish for the youth.” “Yes, Mama.” Long walks had a way of mending her troubled mind and
soothing her soul. There was more to her walks than Mama or Papa knew, and they
must never find out. The barn door whined as she opened it. The cows stared at
her, obviously distraught that she had troubled their peace. One of the horses
that Papa was still taming was in his stall. He watched curiously. In the very
last stall was her friend, her best friend, even more so than Lily. Anna could
never tell Lily about her doubts, about her fears and hopes. They were
everything that their people were taught not to be. “Shh, come here. Come on. Time for our walk.” Anna had found the fawn last year. The mother had been
shot and killed just moments before. From the blood trail she had ran quite a
distance with her helpless fawn following behind, until she had just given out.
The hunters were in the distance talking quietly as they followed the trail.
The fawn had looked so afraid. It was cuddled up against the mother, shivering.
Anna had picked it up and ran with all her might. She fed the fawn with a
bottle until it was big enough to graze. She kept it warm and sometimes slept
in the stall with it. Now the fawn had turned into a beautiful doe. The down of it like silk against her fingers. Brownie followed her like a loyal dog. She never strayed.
They went into the woods behind the house, the familiar way they always took.
The woods was damp with morning dew and nightly rain. Burning, beautiful colors
everywhere. Birds sung melodically. When she was far enough away from home and
knew nobody else was around she began to sing with all of her heart. Not the
way the church sang, without passion or conviction, but with everything she
felt inside of her. The words flowed from her mouth. Their feet crunched
against the bramble and wood until they came to their spot. A place nobody knew
about. An alter made from stones, branches, and sticks. Hidden and nestled
against an ancient tree with moss grown all over it. Amber, orange, and dark
brown leaves hung around it. Anna lifted her skirt above her knees " a forbidden thing
to do, and sunk down onto the muddy earth. Head knelt, she waited to feel the
presence of the Lord. She waited and searched herself to know what to say. “Lord, why do I doubt everything I’ve been taught my
entire life? I feel so broken. I love you with all of my heart " my being. Show
me if this is truly your way. Show me who you really are.” Warm tears trickled down her cold cheeks. Would God still
love her if she doubted these ways? The Bishop said that He wouldn’t. God would
smite her for disobedience. Yet, somehow, Anna felt him with her. When she
prayed there was a peace nestled into her soul. A still small voice spoke from
deep within her. I
will be with you always. Anna stood from the alter, leaving tears and a measure of
sorrow for herself. She didn’t want to be disobedient. She didn’t want God’s
love and mercy to forsake her. The God she had come to know, that she talked to, that
surrounded her with love didn’t seem like the angry God the Bishop preached
about all of the time. The Bishop said God would smite whoever doubted, forsake
those who didn’t believe and let the evil one have them, to devour them. Teach me your ways,
O God, and show me who you are. © 2016 JessiReviews
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2 Reviews Added on January 1, 2016 Last Updated on January 1, 2016 AuthorJessiAboutMy name is Jess. I'm a striving novelist. I enjoy writing for children and adults. I also love to read other writers' works. more..Writing
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