In My Head

Expressing my thoughts, trying to make sense of them. Read at your leisure.

I see the world go by as a blur.
The louder I shout, the less I am heard.
My feelings are constantly under attack.
The world is white, and I am black.

I lash out at the ones who hurt me.
At the same time blocking the ones who love me.
For these actions I wish I could atone.
I am alone because I made myself alone.

I search for someone who understands,
Without having to give in to others’ demands.
I want to be one of a kind.
But I want someone who understands my mind.

I’m alone, but at the same time surrounded.
I have no anchor to which these thoughts are grounded.
From all others, I try to elude.
But I am agonized in my solitude.

All it takes is one little word,
It happens the first time, then second, next third.
Let me try to justify my madness.
I’ve waited too long, I can’t f****n’ stand this.

I live my life in a vacant stare,
Trusting my feelings to people who don’t even care.
I may not be blind, but I still cannot see.
All I need is someone who needs me.

I hate being in this tormented state.
It’s gone too far, I’m beyond irate.
The only solution that I can see
Is to make everyone else just like me.
 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[robcdm]

What I Felt:
I know this feeling, just never found the words, you tapped in to the soul of authenticity and free will and how the common man see not the reality of life but that of it own artificial reality for self.

Mechanics:
The flow of poem is great, the picture you paint is crisp, the emotion feels real, over all a good piece of art.

Thanks
Rob

[Winter McPherson]

Wow! This is great! Up until two months ago I would've told you that I would've thought you had taken these thoughts right out of my own mind! Could absolutely relate to it!

"I search for someone who understands,
Without having to give in to others' demands.
I want to be one of a kind.
But I want someone who understands my mind."
Yes, such a painful dicohtomy! Wanting to be ever the individual yet hungering for understanding. Very well put.

Great job!

I'm white BTW....

[Ruthie]

This is very interesting and raw, the intensity of the emotions you are dealing with are evident. I could imagine this being a song, it has a lyrical quality

[NyahThandie]

I like it. I've been there...believe me i've been there. But don't rush finding someone for sure...I married my husband three years after a huge relationship of mine from college went wrong, and I must say I feel trapped now. You poem is right on with how I felt before, when I was dating my husband. I should have just been true to myself. I feel your torment, I understand your frustration. Keep writing. So far I've enjoyed your work