Sex and Mercury

A Story by Ben M

her body felt so thick and warm atop me. i wrapped my arms around her and i could feel her life coursing through her. and yes, then i took my hand down into her short short shorts and found where all her heat comes from and i did it then and it changed everything. she gripped me for dear life and i could hear her breath shorten and i closed my eyes so i wouldnt have to know who i was, so that my body could have it without my brain having to notice. i could feel pins and needles digging into my stomach

i opened my eyes and looked at her and i knew somehow that this was all that mattered. i brought her to me and we tumbled down into it, shaking and seizing and feverishly exploring. i felt her mercury slowly drip down my back and my throat started to burst at the seams. so many noises happened then: creaking of the bed, moan, spoons clattering to the tile floor, oh god yes, ringing in my ears, yes yes yes, a tea kettle screaming in the other room, my body screaming for help in me.

and then, a white flash, everything seemed blank, like turning the page of your notebook after you've completely covered the page with messy doodles. i let out a breath and looked at my parter in crime. this is where i am in the world, and i could feel steel coursing through my veins, and i could feel my muscles slowly untangling, and i could feel my brain shutting down, and i could feel myself going away.