Black

its gonna snow outside tomorrow and the next day and wednesday

and i just drove for about an hour and its 11:38 PM

and i watched as my headlights skipped out past little dark air

and further out into the night

i thought about the snow

and maybe sliding down a hill on sleds with friends

and how my face would turn red and my hair would get messed up underneath my hat

i thought about bits of snow sneaking in my gloves

so cold that it would burn my wrists

and then lying on my back, heaving up and sinking down

staring up at heavens backbone arching up and down

with little bits of bone catching glances of light from the sun

one million miles away

and also i thought about you as i drove

i have two main visions

first my knee bobbing up and down because every place it touch shocked it

like an excited dog at the end of the yard

and second secretly turning my eyes to you

and seeing the side of you

and the side of your face and the way that it moved about and cut through the bright air

i could see the little way your mouth turned and flipped recklessly

and little spots on your cheek, like mine, but better, and beautiful

i was blown away

beautiful little cheek spots!

i wanted to drop to my knees

little beautiful little spots

i wanted to clasp my hands together and scream at the little bones glittering above

invisible, blasted away by white light

and instead i wanted to be lying next to you

on light white snow drift

down at the bottom of the hill

both of us moving and bobbing beside each other

and then i could lean in and whisper

and tell you about your little cheek spots

and how your smile is my new house and a country and a galaxy

and i am on my feet and i am screaming!

and then we can rush into the car

and together we would push through dark night air

and shoot towards glittering little bones high up

and then in the morning, when the snow fell, and other people slid down hills

we would be invisible in the sky