Heights

I want to hold someone's hand

or rather:

I want someone to hold mine

or rather:

I want someone to want to

rather:

I want someone to want

NOW --

put me in a pan and reduce me down and drink my essence

for sometimes I burn like the sun

and other days I just fizzle out

am I okay?

I am doing okay

I'm afraid of heights,

but I can deal with that later.

RIGHT NOW --

here's what I am thinking.

You and I

and we can tumble into it

because when I think of you

I get red flowers in my eyes and fireworks in my stomach

but you don't think of me at all

hopefully one day when we are both ready

You and I can hold hands