Deep Emotion

Where am I,
Lost between love and abandonment
Conformed To a realm of confusion,
Because even now I don't pursue any answer,
May I float on into the world that exists outside of time.
Where claustrophobia consumes me in an area of infinite space.
Shall I forgive mistakes, or let them punish me,
Until I make amends for my impulsiveness.
My irrationality must drive my sovereign insane.
What can I do to fix my failed tests.
Must I just float in continuously in the void that doesn't exists.
But who understands me, for through all that I have met My thought process has yet to be found.
Am I wiser than the rest, of is my ignorance so great that I'm stuck in my foolishness.
Am I pursuing humility so greatly that it transforms into vanity.
I depended on her love to comfort my own hate, 
So in its absence my soul bleeds endlessly.
So to replace it maybe I'll learn myself's esteem.
But how difficult a concept it truly is.
When all I pursue fails, and I love resents me.
How can my heart beat for itself when the world hates its sound.
Cannot defeat the world, there is no divinity in my blood.
Only corruption flows through my soul. 
So my sin upon me.
Cannot see what my future holds, for my past continuously blinds me.
You might say" your to dramatic, fight your pain, stick it out like a good solider would."
But I love her.
I want to forget her.
But I'd miss her.
I want to resent her.
But she's innocent.
I want her.
To walk with her, to kiss her, to fight for her, to pray with her, to give to her, to sex her, to argue with her, to laugh with her, to die with her.
Our desires may not be accomplished,
But if I could have this one, I'd never dream again.
For I would be living its fantasy.
My God I cherish her, my friend I desire her.
Fix me,
Let me forget her or get her.
For the void is long and boring, answerless and stale.
I promise to find love for myself, I'd have to if I'd ever dream of having her heart. 
Maybe my selfs worth lie at the end of he void.
To bad I float in infinite space.

Reviews

[Call_Me_Miss_Imperfect]

Wow, at first my eyes were hurting from trying to read the size of the font you typed this in! Haha. But I began to read this and started to enjoy it. It's really entertaining and sweet. I like it since I totally relate! I think of it as I see one of my best guy friends. I can't have him since he don't see me like that, but I want him so badly.

"Let me forget her or get her" exactly how I feel about those guy friends. Great job. I'm really impressed. :)

P.S.-Maybe bump up the size of the font! ;)
Adding to my library.

Ashley Rivers-- your friend ;)