Tarnish

Written 1/17/2015

My brain's approaching the downward spiral,
I foresee its own destruction.
Corruption reigns inside my head,
It's filled with lust and glutton.
A mental blade imbeds my skin,
Two faced pain is present.
I feel insanity building up,
I can't restrain the madness!

Like a timbered tree falling in the forest,
All my screams aren't heard.
My yelling is inside my f*****g head,
While my heart swell up the hurt.
A slug penetrates my chest everyday,
But my soul is left unscathed.

My time is spent reflecting, looking back at the past.
The Death that was presented and falling down on my a*s.
I remember being bullied, constant blows to the kidney.
Verbal daggers thrown at me, the laughing stock I'd be crowned thee.
My soul was ripped from my body, my heart cut from the veins.
So I patched it was a rusty needle stored inside my brain.

Like a timbered tree falling in the forest,
All my screams aren't heard.
My yelling is inside my f*****g head,
While my heart swell up the hurt.
A slug penetrates my chest everyday,
But my soul is left unscathed.

Don't know how I'm living through this lack of bliss.
I wish I could just fly away from this.
That I could just go jump into an endless abyss,
Rather than be stuck in this mile-wide heap of bullshit.