A point of my being.

A Chapter by Will Zombie

Writing to me is an outlet that is beyond any other. I enjoy the thought of writing my thoughts out before I think or as I think them. It gives me a sense of un filtered I do not encounter in my daily speech. My mind is very much open right now, I feel as if thousands of thoughts race through my subconscious but none through my conscious mind. It makes for a very frustrating time indeed. I know my mind is completely opened now because I must prepare for what is coming. Something is coming, a change, an event, a person, something is coming and I know it at my very core. My core shines because I have rediscovered my cores brilliance; it had been covered by all the muck and negativity within our society of today.

Something is the only word I have for it. Imagine a string, and that string starts in my brain, and trails down my spine and on the way down it wraps around my heart muscle. Now imagine every heart beat, pumps more into this string; each pump of my heart brings me that much closer to what approaches, and I cannot ignore it anymore. I have no doubts, that this change will influence the way I think and feel for the rest of my physical life here. I know it will cause much strain on my mental capabilities but I do not fret at the fact. I welcome it as a challenge I have yet to experience. And I cannot wait to overcome it and learn from it. And then, what else to do with my life one my ask, well I am more than happy to say I will be waiting for the next time in my life where something will come to me. Something that will redefine my eyes and my energy. I say eyes simply because I see so much with them, and yet I see nothing at all; my mind is growing and I make sure I keep it growing, but my eyes are something that I have not been prone to. My logical mind tells me I cannot see the things that are coming, but I will. I WILL see them one day because I will MAKE it happen. I refuse to bend my beliefs, and I refuse to fail. I will fight failure with every last strain in my physical being. And I will succeed, I have no thought of not succeeding, merely the knowledge that if I fail at first I will stand back up and do it again, until I succeed. Infinite, wrap your mind as far around the concept as you are capable, and put that type of massive scale, to my desire to succeed at everything I do from this moment on, and you will know my mind set and that I will do as I say, no questions asked. End of the story, no no no, not the end of the story only the beginning, a beginning that will destroy all that I once knew and replace it with something that I should’ve always known.

I am becoming the person I have always been, but never have been before. I find great inspiration in that statement, and I can easily explain why. A person is with out a doubt a very interesting subject to observe, we have so many odd tendencies and ridiculous thoughts on where we should go as a species. I see that path as a perverted one, one that promotes violence and carnage within fellow humans. Some say it is our nature to be violent, our wars are the outcome of our animal nature coming into a technology driven society. Well I agree, it is in our nature, but if we are so damned smart where is it said that we must accept that nature for all time. Sooner or later our nature will destroy us for our weapons continue to grow in their deadly effectiveness. Which can only lead one direction if we continue to be lead by greed, anger, and deception, and that direction is the direction of the extinction of one of natures finest achievements. I say I am becoming someone I have always been but never have been before. I suggest that a person is who they are at their core the moment their soul decides their life is the one they want to experience. And from that day on, that person is themselves and no one else, they think their own way they respond their own way, the feel their own way etc, but what our poor society has unwittingly done is put the concept of our children being our property and responsibility to teach how to think into our heads, when it is no ones right but that persons. I have began to destroy all the non sense that was told to me to tell me how to think, tell me how to act, tell me how to be just to be another version of our ancestors and I say hell no. I say my ancestors were who they were and I am who I am. I am the product of them and their thoughts, now I will think the way that was given to me, and experience the world for all that it is not for all that I’m told it is. I will speak the truth I find and if others find truth in my words then so be it I am glad to have helped. If my words hold no truth for you then I respect your choice and hope you find your own sense of truth that can effectively help you become all that you were meant to be. Tell me you had dreams yes, so do I. We are taught to think dreams don’t come true in the ‘real world’ and to live by facts and experience what is given and what isn’t well don’t worry about it, you just go make money for yourself and be happy.

Happiness doesn’t come from anything but your core. And when your core is damaged, scratched, dirty etc that happiness is hurt as well, so what do we as a general people do? We decide to tell our kids everything they were told and start it all over but with renewed manipulation. I do not hold a grudge or negative feelings towards the way things have gone I feel sorrow, and hope. I feel sorrow for all those that do not see that they could be happy, but for some reason CHOOSE NOT TO BE. Some may say “I never chose this life I’ve had it hard my entire life” I understand your woes, but encourage you to now take those woes and finally move from them. Look at them, look at all the woe in your life and tell me, do you want to continue living in sorrow and hardship? Then if your answer is no then I suggest something to you, ask yourself a question that has consumed many minutes through out your life and go find the answer. How ever hard it may be, let your curiosity and passion drive you to success and let that success be a stepping stone to even more questions and more answers. Drive drives, let yourself drive! Drive yourselves, and I will be flooring it right next to you all the way.