A Reavilation Rediscovered

 

I wept today, and again, and once more my heart flowed through torrents of emotional release.  I have been seeing loves and woes before I leave for my paths turn towards a better me.  I make plans with those who no matter how small the connection, dear to me.  I show them my trust in my conversations, tell them my feelings and my passion I give it willingly.  And at times it is merely glanced at, then discarded and by those I looked at with much respect.  I wept today for I see and have been told the lesson every being wishing to be a teacher of others must learn to be the teacher that touches souls and helps to let them explode in the owner’s unique way.  I am young in my age, and old in my soul.  The contrast of wisdom to accept the lesson was not with me today though I realize this lesson it is a difficult realization to grasp lightly.  It was as if my whole body was tightly woven up by strings of fact and wisdom and it consumed me. 

            I first realized this lesson many days ago, that a person how ever wise or sure they are that certainty extends only as far as them.  For every person has their own truth they must uncover and release for the world and I cannot force my truth on them.  Being a person with a desire to teach the most basic lessons in existence but are rarely even acknowledged by most, the lessons of inner peace, truth, balance, and wisdom.  Granted one lesson in any topic is merely that, the very first step and once it is taken the vessel can choose to make another step, stay stagnant for all their life, or take a step without looking risking all for the possibility of all. 

            I was re-introduced to this lesson today by a teacher of mine, and my woes slowly faded and slowly transmuted into what I would call a better understanding of myself and heart.  I know I am a good person from today; yes I have my traits I will continue to improve and change some that need changing.  But I finally see that for wanting to change, wanting to change for myself is what passion truly is.  I see my goals ahead of me and I rejoice in the thought of meeting the challenges that lay ahead dead on.  When I am able to teach the knowledge I am grasping the lock to now, I will know what to say to you.  Until then I must decline the temptation of my ego and say I am not ready.  I am not ready to be a teacher for you, but I will be.  My life is my heart.  My heart is my passion.  My passion is my love.  My love is for myself, and for every single spark of energy in our realm and beyond.

 

I will succeed, I will not be overpowered, I will not yield, I will step forward for all the time I can.