Remember

my suicide note

There was a time when I thought money grew on trees and my parents wallets were never ending with money.

There was a time when I got into trouble all the time and my punishment was a variety of things from the hand to vacuum pipes.

There was a time when I made my father cry and I that was the first time I ever seen a grown man cry.

There was a time when I loved.

There was a time when I learned how to write good.

There was a time when for three years got away with anything in school.

There was a time when I could make people laugh with my antics.

There was a time when I had my first and longest crush on a girl.

There was a time when I fell in love with a dream girl I made and I still do.

There was a time I loved every girl I laid eyes upon.

There was a time when I had my first kiss and it felt so right but the relationship went sour.

There was a time when I made great friends but slowly they dissipate one by one.

There was a time when I hurt people and I still do though I don’t try to intentionally.

There was a time when I made complete strangers online laugh and I still do for now.

There was a time when I fought like hell to get rid of a mom for nine long a*s months straight and in the end I won.

There was a time when I had many lovers and friends and now they’re just about all gone.

There was a time and still is that I want to be with my Amy.

There was a time when one girl brought me to tears by a simple picture of her.

There was a time when I was on top of my game.

There was a time when I lost myself and still I can’t get ahold of it.

There was a time when I had phoenix passion.

There was a time when I cared.

There was a time when I cried endlessly and still I do.

There was a time when I needed help and nurturing still I do.

There was a time when I was untouchable.

There was a time when I stood alone.

There was a time I fought a drag queen and won via DQ online.

There was a time when D Generation X fueled my controversial humor.

There was a time when I was The Unforgiven Outlaw Torn.

There was a time when I ran on nothing but pure anger and hatred.

There was a time and still is that depression overtook me like quicksand.

There was a time when I had nothing left yet I kept on.

There was a time when my grandmother made me cry and still she does.

There was a time when my girlfriend made me cry and she does now and then.

There was a time when I could seduce any girl I came across.

There was a time when I cried my eyes out when Eddie Guerrero died.

There was a time when I cut my wrist for the first time.

There was a time when I could write the best love poems.

There was a time when I lost everything and still I am.