Delusions

Oh how I miss you

Every second of the day

But can we truly miss what was never ours?

For you are not mine

Nor will you ever be

And yet I still miss you

The way your hands clasp around mine

Pulling me closer as you tug on my heart

So warm and safe

Yet so dangerous and opaque

But can we truly miss what is still here?

For you are still physically present

Nor will you ever leave my mind

And yet I still feel as if you are gone

No longer do you look at me the same

Or hold my hand so sweet

You only fill me with sadness

And regret of what could have been

If I had just been somebody else

Somebody you can love

But can we truly miss what was never real?

For what we had was only one sided

Nor will it ever be reciprocated

And yet I still feel as if the linger of your touch

Urges me to fight the hope

That you could magically feel the same

Pulses of emotions that resonate within me

Whenever you are near

But can we truly miss a delusion?

A mask to satisfy the desire of being loved

By anyone with a heart

So that somehow our own hearts

Will never have to feel the ache of loneliness?

Yes, yes we can

Author's Note

This is one of my favorite poems I've ever written and the process of writing it helped me a lot with the situation that is being expressed. I hope you all enjoy it.

Reviews

[Bala Gorthi]

A nice write Imani Everett!
Some verses are really touching. I liked these lines much:
Can we truly miss what was never ours ?
Can we truly miss what was never ours?
But can we truly miss a delusion?
I loved the last stanza and the note on which it ended. This write is beautiful as well as touching.
Thanks for sharing..
Welcome to writerscafe.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

The prospect of loving someone that would never be ours is heart-wrenching.. And yet we don't stop ourselves from loving again and again.. I loved the idea portrayed here.. Good work ☺