Body RhythmA Story by Once upon a timeA disturbed man finds a dead body and becomes obsessed with it.The upper part of his eye socket
was missing, but there was no blood; only a few shards of bone breaking through
the surface of his skin like icebergs. Had his eyes been blue? Green? Hazel?
Who knows. Maggots had nestled into the spot where his eye would have been.
They were crawling over each other in a slow-motion frenzy to eat what was left
of the soft tissue around his cheek bone. The other eye lid was closed but I
could see movement underneath, like the flickering, dreaming eyes of living
men. The bulge under the lid was most likely more maggots, but I was too afraid
to find out for myself. He was wearing a blue hooded sweater
that zipped in the front, Old Navy jeans, and a pair of what use to be blue and
white Nike’s. The parts of his shoes that should have been white were a dingy
grey and the toes were scuffed, exposing bits and pieces of the leather
underneath. The only parts of his skin that were visible were his hands and his
face. His skin was almost lilac in color, but that could have been from the
light of the neon sign nearby that flashed ‘LIVE NUDE’ and let passer-bys know
that there was a topless bar behind the heavy black door beneath it; although
they should be able to tell from the loud thump,
thump, thump of the music playing inside. The dead man and I were in the
alley behind the strip club next to a dumpster that I can only imagine was full
of used condoms and balloons that once contained heroin that traveled over
borders in the a*s of a pretty young girl. As I stood there over the corpse and
watched the maggots gracefully consume him, I felt a sense of calm. I was
almost euphoric. I don’t know how long I
stared down at the pale lips that turned up at the corners into a little smirk,
but eventually I walked away. I didn’t call the police. I didn’t tell anyone. I
walked away. I went home and made a microwave dinner, since my studio didn’t
even have a stove. I think the building was once used for offices and someone
bought it and rezoned it. Now it’s nothing but a s****y apartment complex for
drug addicts and the mentally ill. I
turned on the old tube television and watched reruns of 90’s sitcoms and
listened to the grunts and screams coming through the thin plaster from my
schizophrenic neighbor. He yelled obscenities with his mouth pressed against
the wall because he was convinced that the government had bugged his apartment.
When he would eventually become worn out and his yells turned into low, barely
audible mumbles, I could finally fall asleep. Even my dreams were filled with
noise. My six year-old self watching my
mother clamor around the kitchen, banging pots and pans in the sink when she
washed the dishes. She was angry again, yelling something that I couldn’t quite
make out. Her hands were an overwhelming hue of bright pink in the thick
dishwashing gloves and she was waiving around dirty knives in the direction of
my father who was seated at the kitchen table. He looked up from over the top
of the newspaper and when our eyes met he winked at me. I woke up before the sun, but I was
used to it because of the short winter days. I brushed my teeth in my cramped,
closet like bathroom, looking at myself through the warped Plexiglas mirror. My
hair was greasy and stuck up all over in tufts, sprinkled with bits of feathers
from the pillow on my bed. My other neighbors were already awake and yelling at
each other about which morning news channel to watch and how strong the coffee
should be made. I’m not sure why, but I decided that I had to go see if the
body was still there. The urgency I felt was bizarre as it rushed me down the
street before I even had my coat buttoned. The strip club was only a few blocks
from my apartment that was sandwiched between two high-rise buildings decorated
in graffiti and sprinkled with broken windows. I felt as if I couldn’t get
there fast enough. I was worried that someone might have found him. Someone
might have taken him away and I was terrified. A sense of relief came over me when
I turned the corner and caught a glimpse of his sneaker. He hadn’t moved. His
arms and legs were positioned exactly the way they had been last night. He was
on his back with his face rolled onto the right cheek, the shattered socket
facing up toward the phone wires and smog that were above us. His left arm was
across his body and his shoulder was turned in. The other arm was underneath
him, but the hand emerged from the opposite side of his back. I wondered if the
arms of dead people fell asleep. The hips were turned so that he could have
been running if he were standing upright. He looked uncomfortable. I watched him lay there peacefully
as the sun rose behind the shield of gray smog and I learned that his face was pale purple. Around the broken
socket was dark maroon and I could see where the skin had tore away from the
bone when the piece of it went missing. It shriveled up and pulled back across
the skull, exposing the meat beneath it. The maggots had made short work of the
eye socket and the hole was even larger than it was last night. They must have
burrowed deeper into his head because his cheeks began to sink in and his skin
looked spongy. I bet his name was Mike. There are a
lot of men named Mike, so I felt like this was a safe bet. He looked Hispanic
with a head full of dark hair, thick eyebrows that came close together in the
center, and a shadow of stubble above his pale upper lip. His last name would
have been something like Rodriquez or Lopez. I kneeled down beside him, wanting
to check to see if he had a wallet that would give me some insight into his
life. I reached toward his pants pocket, hesitating, and I decided that I
should head to work. When I got to the office, I couldn’t
concentrate. The computer screen in front of me glowed an iridescent blue and
the low, usually inaudible, hum sounded like a bee flying around my head. I
could feel the keyboard keys under my fingers, but my hands weren’t moving and
all I could think about was Mike Lopez. Did Mike have a dog waiting for him at
home? Was there a dead dog at home that starved waiting for Mike to come back
from the strip club? How often did Mike go to the strip club? I wondered if
anyone knew him; if anyone was looking for him. Did Mike have a family? And
even with my brain moving a mile a minute with scenarios about Mike’s life,
calling the police was never an option. Once again I found myself in tucked
away in the alley behind the strip club, kneeling dangerously close to the body.
It was faint, but he was beginning to smell, or perhaps the odor of a rotting
corpse was underwhelming when compared to the stench of the city. He seemed so
familiar to me now. Like someone I may have known or have been friends with in
a past life. I leaned closer to his face and studied all of the little
imperfections that I’m sure he noticed when he looked at himself in the mirror.
We shared a scar across our left eyebrow that cut a jagged river into the hair.
We were kindred spirits, Mike and I. I got my scar when I was ten years-old
when my foster brother threw a rock at me. I wondered how Mike got his scar. I sat down, leaning against the
brick wall that encased the dumpster, next to Mike’s body. His head was turned
away from me in the familiar fashion of two men embarrassed about sharing
serious and meaningful conversation. The time passed by with the rhythmic pulse
of the music in the club. I imagined the naked women as they pranced around the
hot, sticky stage in their high heels, glittering like diamonds surrounded by
filth. The men would be hooting and hollering at them, waiving around their
dollar bills, bidding on bodies. And when the women came over to their side of
the stage, the men would toss the cash at their feet, letting it litter the stage,
feeling powerful as they watched the women crawl around on their hands and
knees to gather a measly ten dollars. Out here with Mike, the city was
quiet. The dark alley with its neon glow was a sanctuary hidden away from a
city infested with the grotesque. I didn’t feel bad for Mike. Here in our
alley, he was peaceful, he could sleep. When I was with him, I was tranquil as
well. I thought about death and the serenity it must bring if you are lucky
enough to have someone smash your head in with a brick. I decided that this is
what happened to Mike after I spotted a brick not too far from where we sat. I
stayed this way in a silent meditation next to the still body, listening to the
thump of the bass behind us, and dozed off into a relaxed sleep that I hadn’t
had in years. Again
my mother was yelling, her voice sounded like a train’s horn, and her words
were unintelligible. This time she was standing over my father while he was
reading the paper. A pink gloved hand came up and slapped him across the face and
the clapping sound echoed through the kitchen. She walked back to the sink and
slammed the pots and pans together in the hot, soapy water. After a moment he
winked at me, standing up from the table, the chair skidding against the
laminate flooring, and he grabbed her by the neck from behind. Her body tensed
in shock and when he yanked her away from the sink, she dropped the handful of
cutlery she had been washing. I was awoken by the high pitched
squeal of the back door to the club, and the loud, hollow smacking sound it
made when it came into contact with the wall adjacent to Mike and me. The large
black man stood directly under the light that was illuminating the back door.
He stood there in a moment of hesitation, holding a trash bag. He saw us.
Before he could say anything I jumped to my feet and hurried down the other
side of the building, disappearing down the street. I ran so hard that it hurt
to breath and I could feel my heart pounding in my throat. When I made it back
to my apartment, the neighbors were sleeping but there was a low white noise in
my head like the sound of a snowy TV screen. I abandoned Mike and the world was
loud again. My
mother was screaming this time. They were both on the ground, my father on top
of her with her body pinned underneath his. There was no hard packing sound as his
fist came into contact with her face repeatedly. I couldn’t hear his heavy
breathing or his forceful grunts. The only sound that I could hear was her
shrill scream until it came to an abrupt stop when the steak knife was plunged
into the side of her neck, releasing blood that crept across the floor, slow
and steady like honey. With a flash I found myself sitting across from my
father at the table again, he was reading the newspaper. My mother wasn’t there
and it was quiet. My eyes were drawn to the pink stain on the laminate flooring
where the blood had been. I looked up at
my father and when our eyes met, he winked at me. I holed up in my tin can apartment
for a couple days, afraid and ashamed of myself. I thought about Mike, but the
obsession with him that once drove me now made me feel guilty and when I
finally went back to the alley, I walked slowly and reluctantly. I knew that
after the other night someone would have called the police and Mike would be
gone, but it still didn’t prepare me for the profound sense of emptiness that I
felt staring at the bare spot on the ground where his body had been. There were
footprints in the dirt, all different shapes and sizes and I could picture the
scuffling of multiple cops as they busied themselves around the body. The
violation of what had felt like a sanctuary could still be felt by their
leftover yellow police tape. I sat down, cross legged in the clean spot that Mike’s
body had left in the dirt. A tacky blood spot was left behind where his head
and been and I could see a few maggots, unmoving. I wondered if they had fallen
when he was taken, or if they had done such a complete job consuming him that
they had begun to emerge from the backside of his head. I sat there, staring at
the blood, and the world was loud around me. The cars drove down the street,
rumbling and wheezing. People were yelling from their apartment windows. Doors
all around opened and slammed closed. And the only comforting sound was the
rhythmic thud from the strip club.
My head felt heavy with guilt and
the sickening sounds of the city were intensified in my brain. Thump, thump, thump. The music broke
through the noise of the city, a small twinge of comfort followed. I stood up
from the ring of footprints and walked toward the front of the building. The
neon sign hummed above my head, ‘LIVE NUDES’. The black door was impossibly
heavy and a large black man pushed it open for me from the inside. It was the
same man that saw me with the body, he didn’t recognize me. He said, good
evening sir, and held the door open for me as I walked into the cloud of
cigarette smoke and glanced shyly at the bodies of the beautiful women and the
men were invisible to me. I thought of Mike in a morgue, on a gurney, in a
silent metal box with a latched door and I was engulfed by the relaxing sound, thump, thump, thump. © 2016 Once upon a time |
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