Misguidance

A jumbled up mess of my feelings.

I adapted, I learned, I forgave and forgot,
and  I let my heart become too lost..
Once again it was all for nowt.
Once again I have paid that cost.

romance, who needs it,
love....who cares.
it's a dual bladed knife,
that rips and tears.

My heart is heavy and full of sorrow,
the world seems gloomy and dark.
I wish there was more hope for tomorrow,
but right now, my world is bleak and stark.

Too many things that still need done,
too many things going to hell.
No time for love, no time for fun,
no time to just sit and dwell.

Life keeps going, no matter what,
onward, forward it never stops.
Just when you think your dream is caught,
that's when your dream folds and flops.

I tried to say how I felt,
I tried to show all I had done.
I tried to play the hand I was dealt,
and in the end I still have none.