Not AnymoreA Poem by Lyndathis is for a contest i'm entering."He didnt make it." Those words repeated inside my head. Over and over again. It was about six months after I had first heard those bitter words. I had gone mad. A month after, i woke up crying again. I dreamt that he was there, he was alive, he right in front of me, telling me that he loved me again and again. I ran towards him, but when i reached him. He was gone, in place was an empty tree. There was nothing there. I woke up and fell from my bed. I was on hands and knees, every breath was harder and harder to make as I started to sob. I didnt even get to tell him that i loved him with all my heart. I cried until dawn came, even then there was nothing that would make me feel any less than an empty body. I felt nothing, nothing but the pain and sorrow that came from those words. I didnt want to do anything. Soon after, I didnt feel the need to eat anymore, so i didnt eat. I didnt want to do anything, so i locked myself inside my room. Sure my family would come to give me food, but i didnt eat. I would drink a cup of water, every now and then when my throat was so dry that i could cry anymore. That i couldnt talk or breathe, i would have a cup of water then. That's when i would. I looked down at the world, at the yard that i would play in, the place that was filled with happiness and laughter. I could still hear that laughter. But i didnt care, all i knew that i just existed in a body with nothing inside. I walked towards the bed. I hated it. I hated sleep every since that dream. I would sleep when I needed to, but i would dream. Not anymore. I didnt want the things in life that i was so used to before, not anymore. Not anymore, will i talk, will i communicate with anyone. Not that i didnt have anyone to talk to, it was just that i didnt want to bother anymore. It was too painful. I just screamed and shouted and started to sob. I threw every picture of us at the mirror. Glass flew everywhere. But then i looked down, to see that a picture of him had surived, the entire frame and picture was perfect, completely untouched. I grabbed it. Then a light appeared from the sky, for the first time i had saw the light. I laughed, I smiled, i felt every joy of happiness as the light filled me with its warmth. I knew. I knew I knew then that he was in a better place. He was all right. I was going to be alright. I could feel myself again as i stared down at the picture. I heard a knock at the door. "Honey, are you okay? Do you want to go and talk to me?" My mom entered the room. I sobbed, but this time, it was tears of joy. "I'm fine mom. I'm back, i'm back. I'm back." I hugged her and started to sob into her arms. © 2009 LyndaReviews
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Added on January 29, 2009AuthorLyndaAboutMe? I'm just a writer and a poet from Missiouri. I'm always writing. I write mainly fanfiction, but i just got a deviant account so then there's that too. more..Writing
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