Do You?

Do you ever sit and wonder 

about who I am today 

about the twenty years that's passed 

or the reason I walked away?

Do you ever search for me

In a crowd of unknown faces 

bearing knowledge and certainty 

I cant be in two places?

Do you ever hear my voice

and turn your head to see 

the empty space that stands before you 

realizing it wasn't me? 

Do you ever think about 

that cold day in late December

about the twenty years that's passed 

tell me what do you remember?

Do you ever have regrets

about the choices that you've made 

is it worth all it has cost,

the price that you have paid?

Do you wish to play the role 

you gave up years ago?

The two lives that mean the most to me 

my boys you do not know 

Do you know while you walk your path

at night for you I pray 

that you live to see another tomorrow 

that you seek help soon someday?

Do you realize what should have been 

what could have been and more? 

the Rock that made your world go 'round

made you shut and lock that door

Do you know despite all you've done 

deep down that I still care? 

even though that when the day is done 

I know you wont be there