Journal of a Manic Depressive

The blood that spills upon these weary hands
Is but a taste of what may come to be.
I know, too well, that no one understands
All of the racing thoughts inside of me.
One thought of happiness is replaced by
Ten other thoughts of pain and misery
Only to follow the questions why
I must live on in endless agony?
I know I am not wanted in this life
Because all of my suspicions come true
When those I loved stabbed my heart with the knife
Of betrayal as they hunt and pursue,
But times will come when I will find a way
To get revenge and take this hurt away.

Author's Note

Written on "Deadly Monday." The psychomachia of a depressed me on a horrible day.

Reviews

[realmwriter]

Revenge only make the pain worse, believe me, I know. Awesome write though...

[Fragilebrokendreams]

It definitely explains the pain and agonizing life.

[GridLok]

Certainly evocative of the 'darkness' so characteristic of a depressive episode. You demonstrate an ear for poetic expression that lifts the mundane to the captivating.

[Lily Mae]

The pain and suffering with this goes unnoticed by so many.. but then again it's something that isn't talked about to much.. You've penned the waves of emotion that go along with this perfectly..x

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

The personification of delivered horror and perfetion, well done, good read.

[Effector Prime]

"I know I am not wanted in this life
Because all of my suspicions come true
When those I loved stabbed my heart with the knife
Of betrayal as they hunt and pursue"

truly captivating lines..

yes you will get your justice alright
just make it painless
and god forbid, dont deprive them of life!
that would be pointless!
your thoughts are clearly motivated
they should suffer!