I'll Revel In My Nothingness

Grim thoughts. Father's Day sucks, for me........ Not counting that life and my overactive, depressive mind is going in full circles.

 

 

I rest my head inside my hands
Wishing someone could understand
These tears I cry, they are in vain,
Because no one can ease my pain.

 

I have been cursed from up above

To feel no warmth, kindness or love.
All those I know or will care for
Leave me alone, forever more.

 

A simple fool who gave his heart
To those he loved, have ripped apart

His pride, honor, respect and life
With words, with lies, with hatred's knife. 

 

Inside my eyes, there's only pain,
Inside my heart, no trust remains.
An empty shell without a soul,
I am alone, broken, hollow.

 

Inside my mind, I'm trapped in hell
And there, I know, I'll always dwell;
With misery, I am confined

Like demons cursed for all of time.

My life shall know no happiness,
Only grim thoughts of emptiness.
Only in death will I find peace
And only then will my pain cease.

 

And yet death's grip I always fear
Because I know death's always near.
I have no clue what lies in store
Beyond our simple, mortal door.

 

I fear that after my last breath
There is nothing beyond my death,
And if that's so, then in darkness,
I'll revel in my nothingness.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[KimLove "The Beautiful ..]

Wow, You captured me from the first word and I hung on every word there after. You described this oh so well. A feeling I know sometimes too well. But the flow of your pen is extremely wicked. At least with this the first of many I shall read of yours I am sure.

[realmwriter]

Wow!

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A captivating and reclusive piece, well done

[RedInk524]

Wow. Very descriptive. Its impossible not to feel the despair and isolation in it. Perhaps the most depressing poem i have came across in a long time. Very good job. It also describes me, and so i have a better understanding.

[Christie Moses]

as i was reading this, I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed by the pain of it, and also think to myself, how deeply I have known these feelings :(
It left my heart aching.

[Kayla K]

The sadness in this is so overwhelming. "Inside my mind, I'm trapped in hell." I hate that feeling..

[TJ]

What a sad poem. Submission, depression. Its as if instead of living life you feel trapped by life bc of your fear of death

Very sad

[Lily Mae]

"Inside my eyes, there's only pain,
Inside my heart, no trust remains.
An empty shell without a soul,
I am alone, broken, hollow".
I know how this feels all too well.. Sometimes the nothingness is so much more easy to dwell in... Well penned emotions.. x