In the end
I found the beginning
And lost what I hadn't found.
My soul was no where in it
No where to be bound.
I tried to understand this life
But I got lost in the unimportance
Of my own self worth.
Trapped and oppressed
By how I was percieved
By onlookers
And passer-bys.
This mind tainted
By the ideas and theories
Of others...
Therefore I lost myself
In the reality they told me
Was real...
But it was my mind that made
Me percieve my reality...
What is reality?
But societies standard for
What is right?
What came first
the lion or the lamb?
Was it "God"
Or was it "Man"?
This reality takes shape
As I realize I have no
Recognizable form.
Who am I ?
What are we?
Am I Alone?
Does this make you afriad?
No.
No.
Yes.
And In my denial
I found the will to understand
The question;
The will to stare down
The answer
And not avert my eyes
From the mere truth of my existance.
What is a soul?
What is its purpose?
Where is mine?
I looked deep inside of my self
For the answer
Only to realize that I must first
Look in from the outside.
To Reel myself in
To Open my minds' eye
To how others percieve me.
To how I truly see myself.
I loath
I loath
I hate you!
I hate being alone
I want
I want
I love
I lust
I am human.
What does it mean to be human?
To get hurt?
To make mistakes
To love?
To be afraid
To be loved?
To be cognizant
To percieve my surroundings as reality
To be aware of reality...
Is this all I am?
A cognizent puppet...
A living Doll
To be passed around and taken advantage of?
I fold in upon myself
Having no recognizable shape
I am alone...
No I only percieve that I am
Because I am nothing.
How can I be
If I am nothing?
How can we be If we are nothing?
Suddenly I began to see.
Aren't we the ones who
Create "Gods"...
So, wasn't it we who created ourselves?
We found form
We took shape
We Adapted
The end
Justifys
The beginning...
And so we started out as one
In the end
And became so in the beginning.
Friday May 29th, 2009