Inchoherent Thoughts Exhaled Without The Pressence Of Sound

Stream Of Concious Writing

Restless

I'm tied up

In the rampant

Thoughts that

Caress my mind.

I find myself sitting here

Trying to force the words

I long to tell you...

To will them to come out

Right

On paper....

Come out right

From my lips.

Damn it all.

Damn you for this absolute

Nothing;

This

Starving me to death.

Pull my heart out and rip it to shreads

Why don't you.

Empty.

Stream of consciousness.

Floating.

Your arms.

Damn delete buttons.

F**k them all.

F**k you

And your ways.

I didn't mean it.

I meant every word

I didn't say,

That day

I was afraid.

Why can't I think of anything.

I'm not going to sleep.

Screaming to be heard.

Lost in a puddle of mud.

Who are you

To talk to me that way;

Who are you to hurt me this way?

You scare me.

Some times I scare myself.

I would be your air

All you'd have to do

Is breath me in.

Here it comes again

This blinding pain

That accompanies

My withdrawl

From you.

Don't cry

You can't cry anymore

Not here.

Not now.

This un-life

This suburbian prison

Walls close in on me.

I'm lost with out you;

I'm lost with out myself.

Time and space is ending

Will you come with me?

I miss you.

I miss you in the rain.

Picnic tables.

First kisses.

You smelled really good .

Lay with me.

Just be,

Be with me.

A terrible itch takes hold

Of me.

Dirt under fingernails

Gotta clean the kitchen

Tomorrow.

Sometimes I long to be anyone

but me...

Anywhere but here.

So leave..

Leaving leaves me with nothing

But empty hopes and dreams...

She'll leave me with nothing

Not like I had anything to begin with...

So do you see...

Can you see now?

I'm alone

Vulnerable

I remember it all

I hate this..

I hate me.

Breathe

just breathe

And let it all go...

I need to take a bath...

I need to wash myself of this

nonsesnse.

Radical

Nonsensicle

Popcicle of a man.

*Fidget*

Your eyes are beautiful in the sunlight.

Reviews

[Jason]

I love the sort of psychological approach you took with this one...., and the sort of demented arguing within (that I am getting from it). The yin yang, or night and day effect that seems to flow through the lines of this I really enjoy. It is right in my point of interest.. I really like your style you have within everything you write to be honest. It is in a league of it's own....and, If I haven't said so before...you are one of my favorite writers. Brilliant! I'm adding this one to my favs!

Jay

[Not2Far]

yes this is a poem I remember all the feelings wrapped up inside of this... funny how without being near you or even know you, I was there through out the poem......................

[J. Alexis Balaguer]

You have a great mind my friend.

Keep writing,
Punishment

[Cool Handless Luke]

One of my favorites yet! Very well written. The inner struggle. the anger, bitterness, sorrow, weakness flow of it back and forth leading to your own devalued image of yourself because you feel what you do and you can't just be strong, so to speak and walk away from it. it hurts to need because it hurts when you aren't needed back. last four lines are my favorite - very expressive and unique. awesome job - thanks for sharing. going into my library of favs!

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Will you come with me?

I miss you.

I miss you in the rain.

Picnic tables.

First kisses.

You smelled really good .

Lay with me.

Just be,

Be with me.

a lot of mixed emotions in this write...I like it alot...and the way you wrote it..wel written..

[LisetteCanWrite!]

Oh such a feeling of being lost.. struggling and vulnerable.. trying to convince and argue with oneself that someone else is either wanted or truly not wanted.. which feeling will win??? Weighing out the balance of one's own surroundings and that of another they wish would maybe rescue them.. that is the feeling that I felt from this write.. how many people struggle with these issues daily? Also trying to find things to do with your time to forget these mixed up emotions.. this is truly a mixed feel for emotions.. but surely a struggle.. is it love or some type of bipolar disorder.. if going on for a long time this spells trouble.. if just coming out of a relationship it could be very normal.. either way I love the honesty flowing.. thank you for sharing.. if written from reality .. I hope you feel better soon.. if just a psychological experiment.. well done! =)