Empty inside

Am so confused on what to write
Am all sorts of broken at this point
Been the person who held in the pain
Been that person who kept quiet to the pain

Recently my dreams were not important to me
But it went well with my twin sister
My mom said study for psychology I agreed
Because I wanted to make her proud

When I signed up for psychology no one cared
No one was even interested to pay my fees
My sister got to live in the shoes I wanted
While I sat and watch my mom refer me to a house help

I get sick I wait it out till its over cause no one cares
Is funny how I can make a mistake and am the worst
Yet I spend my entire time looking after everyone
Maybe all my words will remain silent